I was never loud.
Quite the opposite actually. I was quiet, shy, hoping to “fly under the radar”, just fit in and not be noticed.
I rarely raised my hand in class. I dropped out of choir when I found out I had to sing a solo. Complete fear set in that I’d be center stage. All eyes on me. WHAT? NO WAY! I’m OUT!
I battled myself to speak up in meetings as a young adult. I had things to say…but what if others disagreed, thought I was dumb…
Have you been there?
When I started the “Do The Doodle” 30 Day Challenge a few weeks ago…well, I almost didn’t. I almost chickened out at the last minute. It meant I had to put myself out there. I had to “speak out” through my journal drawings. I had to SHARE my personal thoughts and feelings. Dude, really? That’s SUPER scary! Not just the thoughts and feelings part but my drawings too.
“I SUCK at drawing”.
“My handwriting is so UGLY”!
“People will…[laugh, judge, think I’m strange…]”.
“I’ll share something personal and someone might discover all my secrets”.
But, something pushed me to do it. To just let go and do it.
What You Are Meant To Learn Is What You Are Meant To Teach
My voice is important. It matters.
Speaking up feels good. It’s empowering.
But most important, I’m learning, is that it makes a difference. To OTHERS!
When I silence my voice, I silence others too. When I don’t share my thoughts, I don’t fully show up. Others don’t benefit from my contribution. And I, in turn, don’t benefit from theirs.
It’s JUST A Doodle….
I know. It’s just some colors on a page. Maybe a few words. But really, it isn’t. It’s so much more.
Yesterday I drew 3 Doodles. I judged each of them. I didn’t like any of them. Most of my Doodles weren’t about listening to what that inner voice was saying. They were about my image and your acceptance of it. I hesitated about posting anything. But in the end I did. I posted the “worst” one (visual judgement again). The first one. The one that really carried my message and where I was in my life at that moment.
It resonated. With several people. But for one person, it resonated in a big way. It touched on an emotional level something really challenging that she’s dealing with in her life. It became a dedication to someone she loves.
Just a simple little Doodle. Done while sitting on my bed like a teenager. Expressing a message from inside. Making a difference in someone else’s life. A message that almost didn’t reach her because of my own self judgement. How sad that would have been!
I contributed. She benefited. I benefited. Maybe you are benefiting too?
But, it’s JUST a Doodle. 🙂
Coloring Out Loud
However you decide to share your message and use your voice, do it! Don’t hold back. Don’t hide. You are important. You are here for a reason.
Me, I’m going to continue “coloring out loud” because it works. For me. For others.
It’s about to get LOUD in here!
A BIG thank you to “Team Doodle” for joining me on this adventure! If you didn’t join the Challenge, no worries! You can start doodling NOW. Here’s how I got started. And, I’ve been asked to do another Challenge when the 30 days are up. I think the Doodle is here to stay for a while.